Good morning friends,
I often find myself waking in the morning with self-assessment.
How did I do yesterday? Did I live the day in a way that really reflected my values? Did I truly love well, or did I just busy myself to fill the day with doing things that would cause others see me as loving and therefore think well of me?
Was I disciplined in my reading time, eating well, drinking water, exercising, household chores, checking my planner…or did I live the day doing what was easiest or what came up at the moment? How did I do? How will I do with this day?
Here it is again, daily self-assessment for the sake of a sense of well being.
Then the thought came to me, “Well, at least I ….”
“At least I read the Word and journaled.”
“At least I got my walk in and drank two liters of water.”
“At least I wrote the letter to the children I sponsor.”
“At least I cleaned my kitchen.”
“At least I spent time with my children.”
“At least I got the bills organized and paid.”
Self-assessment for the sake of a sense of well being.
What is the “At least…” that I can do today so I will feel alright with myself?
Then the Lord spoke to my heart…”Nothing, nothing is what you can do today so you will feel at peace. I love you , I gave myself for you to cover all your efforts that would never be enough to give you peace.”
I saw the two-fold danger of this “At least” living.
The constant striving to do “at least” something so I would feel less disappointed with myself would keep me from living in the only sense of peace for which I was created…I am loved, so very loved by my kind and generous God.
And secondly, whatever “at least“ I was able to accomplish would be the measure that I would hold up in judgement against others,
“At least they should be…”.
Oh Father, free us from the quick-sand of “At least”. Cause us to be amazed at Your grace and affection towards us. Help us to stand and rejoice and live each day at peace in the overwhelming reality of Your love. Help us to live in kindness and mercy towards others.
Believing this is Your will, I pray in the hope and authority of Jesus.
Amen
I often find myself waking in the morning with self-assesment.
How did I do yesterday?
Did I live the day in a way that really reflected my values?
Did I truly love well, or did I just busy myself to fill the day with doing things that would cause others see me as loving and therefore think well of me?
Was I disciplined in my reading time,eating well, drinking water, exercising, household chores, checking my planner…or did I live the day doing what was easiest or what came up at the moment?
How did I do?
How will I do with this day?
Here it is again, daily self-assesment for the sake of a sense of well being.
Then the thought comes to me, “Well, at least I ….”.
“At least I read the Word and journaled.”
“At least I got my walk in and drank two liters of water.”
“At least I wrote the letter to the children I sponser.”
“At least I cleaned my kitchen.”
“At least I spent time with my children.”
“At least I got the bills organized and paid.”
Self-assesment for the sake of a sense of well being.
What is the “At least…” that I can do today so I will feel alright with myself?
Then the Lord spoke to my heart…
”Nothing, nothing is what you can do today so you will feel at peace.
I love you , I gave myself for you to cover all the efforts that would never be enough to give you peace.”
I saw the two-fold danger.
The constant striving to do enough so I would feel less disappointed with myself would keep me from living in the only sense of peace for which I was created…I am loved, so very loved by my kind and generous God.
And secondly, whatever “At least“ I was able to accomplish would be the measure that I would hold up in judgement against others,
“At least they should be…”.
Oh Father, cause us to be amazed at Your grace and affection towards us. Free us from the quick-sand of “At least”. Help us to stand and rejoice and live each day at peace in the overwhelming reality of Your love. Help us to live in kindness and mercy towards others.
Believing this is Your will, I pray in the hope and authority of Jesus.
Amen